Love and Other Disasters

One of those movies by the late Brittany Murphy that I only discovered after her death. I don’t see love as a disaster, but for some strange reason this title came to my head while I started writing this piece.
I love LOVE, like I jokingly tell my friends, I love that warm fuzzy feeling, I love being so carried away in a relationship that no one else seems to measure up to the one you are with.
I have felt that way just once in my life, and for some reason, I believe that feeling makes you or breaks you emotionally. Or perhaps I am just one of those people, whose action says,

 “I know you are going to break my heart, but I am giving it to you anyway, here is my mumu heart, break it gently” lol

Lately I have been thinking, about that stage in life when you want to be all homely and married and have ten kids, or if you are sane like me two kids, and all of a sudden everyone wants to be with you, and the proposal comes from all corners, but deep down only one person makes you feel safe enough for you to trust them with that  irreplaceable, priceless  piece of you…your heart.

Then you stop and ponder, no amount of money, gifts or tangible substance can replace that intangible feeling , you think of those silly calls that last hours, sometimes nothing substantial being said, just happy to hear each other talk, sometimes you remember the first date, the first kiss, the first time you both said the word I LOVE YOU, and you realize that those words were like vows and they just won’t cease!

You think of those times you fought and how he never raises his voice at you, how you guys never had a fight that was left unresolved. you think of how patient he was even when you proved difficult, you think about how easy and satisfying it felt to make sacrifices for your relationship, because he made you feel like the whole world could take a back seat.

You think of those walks, the talks and how he could be sweet and romantic, and try to act all macho to cover it up. You think about how when you are mad at him everyone could still tell that he loves you and believe in him.

You think of the times you needed someone to talk to, and the certainty of the other person being there to share, you reminisce on what it would be like to wake up each day, forever in the arms of this person, and you realize that the thought of forever doesn’t scare you, it just makes you smile, then you know for certain, its time to make a decision that will change your life forever.